Holding Anxiety to the Light

Do you ever feel like you have soooooo many days where anxiety keeps inviting itself over, again and again?

No matter how many times you have asked it to leave, it keeps knocking at the door…

Maybe you have tried hiding behind the curtain to pretend no one was home. But, it eventually found a weak spot within your foundation, barged right in, and made itself at home within my heart. Not only residing longer than you should tolerate and allow, but also leaving its muddy footprints behind. 

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Here is the thing about anxiety. It will not simply always go away upon request, even after several eviction notices.

Instead, it must be brought to court, and you must endure a full on trial to sit with it, sift through it, really evaluate it, and bring all that it is, up to the light.

No matter how much anxiety has stung, every time it is held to the light, you can see it for what it really is- a messy, yet somehow strategically tangled ball of life. Your past, present, and all of the questions about my future… But when simply held to the light, it becomes apparent that the panic and fear are just a result of the overflow of a new thing setting up camp within yourself.

A new thing that is leaving no room for all of the pain, loss, or pretend from the past. A good thing that desires to take up so much space, the ugly things have to go and can only be used to make you stronger as you continue living. And, when you began looking at anxiety like that, maybe you will feel honored to have endured the scary, confused, worry, and heartbreak, because it allows you to make as much room as you can for the truth that belongs here in this heart.